Staring into the Abyss [reserved, sonya]

[Trinity]

Trinity tried not to let many negative thoughts enter her mind but indeed, this was a wonderful scene and a great setting. She continued to gaze intently at the beautiful woman before her; pleasantly surprised at these turn of events, though her expression did not show this surprise. "Mmm... Geez... Your eyes are just so beautiful. I've said it countless times by now, but I can't take my own eyes off yours... They're really out of this world. You know? In a good way, of course," Trinity said, smiling and leaning forward a little to get a closer look. After all, she was finished eating already. She noticed that while Sonya ate a lot more slowly, she seemed to be enjoying her own cooking a lot too - as she should, given how wonderful it tasted.

Soon the dark-haired beauty confirmed, that indeed, this was actually a reality, and she smiled in return perhaps to match Trinity's own warm smile. "I really must admit... I have not felt this... pure and warm inside, in literally years. Even before my formative years; I must have been a toddler when I felt this good. You... you're really something special, to have awoken that in me... For that I thank you." Trinity said thoughtfully. Now, Trinity never claimed to be heartless, though she was fully willing to admit her dedication to the art of murder, after all. She could still be nice.

It just had to take someone really special to do it. Someone who could understand her. Someone who could appreciate her. And it seemed Sonya was that person. Maybe she could die happy after all, who knows?

[Sonya]

"Thank you," Sonya said, giggling again. "You can look as much as you want." And sure enough, as she continued eating, she kept her eyes up to meet Trinity's. It wasn't too much longer before she finished her meal as well. It was indeed as wonderful as Trinity said, although Sonya hated to be biased towards her own work. She noticed around the same time that Trinity had leaned in to get a closer look at her eyes.

Trinity's next statement brought a very noticeable blush to Sonya's face. She had to admit, she wasn't sure what to make of Trinity at first. The way she'd acted when they'd first run across each other, Sonya had to wonder if the other woman would respond to anything but thrills and bloodshed. But she'd pushed her luck anyway, and this was what she'd uncovered. She'd managed to make someone feel genuinely good, in a pure, innocent way, for the first time since childhood. Almost like what Aria had done for her. Not bad for someone who once thought she herself had become heartless. Maybe she really was 'something special' after all. Or maybe she just had to work her magic on someone equally special.

"Well...the night's still far from over," Sonya said. "Is there anything else you'd like to do? I hope to be able to make you feel good for a lot longer."

[Trinity]

Trinity smiled warmly as she continued to look at Sonya, and was even told that it was alright, despite how creepy Trinity must have looked, looking at Sonya so intensely. But to be fair, for the first time in almost forever, Trinity felt pretty much human, so it was only natural for the blonde to want to look more deeply into the eyes of such an amazing woman capable of even inciting those feelings in her. Even though Sonya had a similar background to her; Trinity felt as if Sonya was able to get her to open up somehow. Soon Trinity realized Sonya was finished eating and asked what they should be doing next. "Sonya, dear... I want you to... ...Please, I want to know what it is like to be treated like... a lover? A princess...?" Trinity barely squeaked out, though her voice was loud enough to be heard, she was unusually hesitant.

She was unsure of how to handle the situation but what she did want to experience was Sonya's touch again. "I want to be in your arms and I want to be touched again... You are so warm, that I already miss being in your arms, missing your lips touching my skin." Trinity continued, becoming a little more confident about her feelings. She desired this much. If she was going to get killed for it, then so be it. A fatal attraction was one of the best thrills of all.

[Sonya]

A hesitant voice answered, asking, almost begging to know what it was like to be treated like a lover. Or a princess. Sonya nodded, standing up and walking around the table to Trinity. Once there, she offered a hand to Trinity and pulled her to her feet, then into her arms. "My dear Trinity, I'd treat you like a queen or a goddess if you wanted," Sonya said. She hugged Trinity tightly, then pulled away just enough to lead and invite Trinity to take her hand and follow. Making her way towards the bedroom, she said, "Come with me. I'm going to give you an experience you won't ever forget. I'm going to make sure this is the best night of your life."

That was, after all, what she had set out to do. But right now, it was looking to be one of the best nights of Sonya's life as well. Followed by one of the worst days. But, maybe there would be a way out of that after all. Maybe she could let her go. If only this was a dream after all...

[Trinity]

Trinity shuddered and she saw Sonya stand up from her chair, walking around and approaching her. Then, offering a hand, Trinity took it and felt herself getting pulled to her feet, and then into Sonya's arms. Then she was told she could be treated like a queen or goddess if she so wanted, but truth to be told, Trinity just wanted to experience the 'love' that Sonya was offering. Then, Sonya made her way towards the bedroom and Trinity followed obediently, being told to go with her, that this night would be the best night of her life. "I trust you, Sonya. I hope I can offer the same back for you too, for everything you've done for me today. It wouldn't be fair if I just kept taking from you, after all~" Trinity said, smiling warmly and softly again, walking with Sonya and clinging tightly to one of her arms.

"I'm excited, really excited... I hope this will be a memorable experience not just for me but also for you, dear." Trinity continued, throwing away proper reason and just going with the flow, just going with her impulses, following her desires. That was all she wanted to do right now.

[Sonya]

Sonya felt a twinge of pain in her heart at Trinity's words. Offer the same back, huh? Sonya did just keep giving and giving tonight, but once it was all over she was going to take everything from Trinity. Her life, her future, her love...all of it. And what would she gain for it? A bit of safety until the next assignment, yes. Money, sure, but that part was less important. Other than that? Nothing but pain. Despite how easily Trinity had fallen into her trap, she had become Sonya's most difficult target yet.

Stay strong, she told herself. She could do this. Her feelings would just make everything leading up to that final moment all the more real. Then when it was all over she could drink herself into a murderous stupor to forget. Then she could go back to her normal life, dreaming of one more carefree.

She let none of this show, of course. While that was going on in the back of her head, she led Trinity into the bedroom with a smile, then sat on the edge of the bed. "Trust me, I'm already going to remember this night forever," Sonya said, pulling Trinity close again. "And it's about to get even better." She wrapped her arms around Trinity, and pulled her into a kiss.

[Trinity]

Trinity couldn't help but force herself to shake off any strange feelings that entered her mind, as she focused on trying to enjoy her time with Sonya. She had already willingly thrown her life away anyway with this, at least that's what Trinity thought. Anything bad that would have come from this was a result of her simply falling for her impulses, falling for her desires to feel... human again. The blonde followed Sonya into the bedroom quietly, still clinging to her, and eventually loosened her grip to sit next to Sonya on the edge of the bed. "That's wonder--" Trinity was going to say something but she felt Sonya's arms wrap around her and she felt herself being pulled into a kiss.

All Trinity could do was close her eyes and reciprocate, and once she had taken in the situation properly and enjoyed how warm this feeling of being held was, she slowly wrapped her own arms around Sonya to reciprocate the gesture, melting into the kiss and letting Sonya take the lead from there, feeling considerably lighter and more relaxed in the dark-haired lady's arms.

[Sonya]

Mmmm. Sonya felt Trinity return the kiss, wrapping arms around her as well. If there were any reservations left in the other woman, they were clearly gone now, lost in that kiss. Her own reservations were gone too. Whatever came next, Sonya too just wanted to enjoy this experience and make it the best she possibly could, for as long as it lasted. In response to Trinity's movements, Sonya slid her hands under Trinity's clothes, letting her fingers trace gently over bare skin. She started gently at first, just touching, to let Trinity feel it in savor it. Then, Sonya started to massage her, and things went from there. It all followed into a night of pure bliss.

---

Hours later, Sonya stirred awake. She rubbed her eyes, careful not to move around too much, then looked out into the next room. From the near complete absence of light, Sonya could tell that either morning had not come, or it was still so early in it that the light hadn't yet reached the cabin. Behind her, it looked like Trinity was still asleep. That was expected. When she started using this trap, Sonya would have tried to stay awake even when her partners inevitably went to sleep, and make the kill then. But with the short hours she normally slept anyway, that was usually unnecessary. She could always be up before them anyway. She would make the kill in their sleep, so that their last memory was of the night before.

Now, she would have to do the same to Trinity.

Sonya thought back to her internal crisis from the night before. She didn't want to do this. Only pain would come from it. But, though she had debated letting Trinity go the night before, she knew she had to. A job was a job, and she couldn't turn this one down in the first place, much less back out now that she'd taken it. Her own safety was at risk here. She'd just have to suffer a bit for it.

A knife was concealed next to the bedpost. In the light, it wasn't difficult for any visitors to find, but in the darkness, especially as occupied as her partners usually were, they'd never see it. Sonya, meanwhile, could find it on memory, and pulled it out. 'I'm sorry.' She wanted to say it, to apologize for what she was about to do, but she didn't want to risk waking Trinity. It would have to wait until afterwards. So, Sonya brought the knife to Trinity's throat, hand shaking, hesitation seeping in yet again. For how easily she had killed in the past, and for the complete lack of remorse she still felt for it, Sonya suddenly found it more difficult to kill than ever before.

Her mind nagged at her. Do it. Do it! Just do it, and you can drink this off later. Find someone else to have fun with, someone you can just walk away from when it's all over instead of killing.

This wouldn't happen again. It was already a miracle that she had managed to find someone she felt so strongly for three times. There was no way it would happen again. This would be the last time she had to go through that kind of pain. But...that was also why she couldn't go through with it. "I can't do it," she said softly.

She pulled the knife away from Trinity's throat, and tossed it aside.

[Trinity]

Trinity felt Sonya's hands brush under her clothes, and that was that. As the night went on, Trinity inevitably would have fallen to the slumber after those passionate moments alongside Sonya. In her sleep, she had been trying to have pleasant thoughts in the form of dreams, but it seemed that they were not coming out. Perhaps Trinity was having reservations about the whole thing despite how real and how amazing it was. How beautiful Sonya was. Everything. But now, nothing. Void. Just... emptiness. Lurked inside Trinity's mind as she slept. Her position was wide-open; her throat was perfectly exposed to be slit, if Sonya opted to, as the other lady was awake far before her. In fact, Trinity looked to be sleeping like a log.

Then the sound of a knife hitting the ground - someone tossing it aside. Trinity's eyes jolted open, but her position remained lying down in place. She saw Sonya sitting up on the bed. "You..." Trinity kept looking at Sonya from her position. Words could not be said for her current situation. Trinity SHOULD have seen this coming. In fact, she had thought about it. But yet, despite the fact that she left herself wide open, Sonya did not kill her right in the spot, she did not take that advantage. "That knife... is yours, wasn't it?" Trinity said feebly, looking up at Sonya.

"You are... really something special." Trinity continued, her smile still feeble, as if she was acknowledging her own weakness in the situation. "By all means, I deserve to be dead for giving myself away to you so freely despite my initial misgivings. But... you made me feel human. And... furthermore... you spared me. You... you spared me..." Trinity said, showing an uncharacteristic sign of shedding a single tear. She was happy, to be alive this day. "You could have killed me... But you didn't... For that... I am yours." Trinity said simply.

[Sonya]

Ah...Trinity was up already. Had Sonya woken her by tossing the knife away? Well...there it was then. She knew now. For a fleeting second Sonya had thought that maybe she could pass it off and pretend she had discarded the idea of killing her long ago. But no, it was pretty clear now. And yet, Trinity didn't seem to be upset at all. Rather, she seemed grateful to be spared. Grateful, and willing to give herself over to Sonya. Sonya's eyes widened at this, but then she quickly pulled Trinity into another hug.

"I guess you've figured it out by now, huh," Sonya said, running her fingers through Trinity's hair despite what she was saying. "This was supposed to be a trap all along. I'd lure you in, give you a night of pure happiness, then finish you off in your sleep. But, somewhere along the way I ended up getting attached too. You remind me a lot of myself, and of people I used to be close to. There's no way I couldn't spare you. Tears started to well up in Sonya's eyes as well as she held Trinity tight.

She was certain now. There was absolutely no way she could take Trinity's life. And if it came to it, she would protect it with her own. Which, actually, seemed like a very real possibility. "Ahh...you should probably know." Sonya's tone darkened. "You're not the first lover I've had. I've had two before, and lost both of them to gruesome deaths. Being with me...may still be a death sentence."

[Trinity]

Trinity was huffing a little, trying to come to terms with her emotions, her feelings, about everything that was happening right now. But as Sonya pulled Trinity in for another hug, all the blonde could do was give a hug back - arms wrapped tightly around the lady who had, only moments ago, try to slit her throat and kill her silently in her sleep. Trinity gently nuzzled against Sonya's hand as fingers ran through her hair. Indeed, Sonya explained that this was all meant to be a trap - such a memorable experience that was constructed to be the last thing Trinity would have thought about before being put out of her misery. Except, Sonya could not commit for her emotions got in the way as well.

Trinity continued to embrace Sonya, resting her head on the dark-haired lady's shoulder. "I see... So those strange feelings I had at first weren't baseless after all... But still, I am very grateful. And as you say... If being with you may be a death sentence... So be it. We will find a way to cheat death. You and I..." Trinity continued, taking into account that Trinity was not the first lover she had. Two before. That would make Trinity the third - which was funny, given her name.

"And I am sorry... For what must have undoubtedly been painful losses... But.." Trinity positioned herself so her face was inches in front of Sonya's. "They say third time's the charm, and we'll find a way to make sure things will last. I'll make sure of it." Trinity said at last as she was the one now to give Sonya a kiss straight on the lips, arms wrapped around Sonya's head.

[Sonya]

"Maybe so...maybe we will find a way. That would be nice, wouldn't it..." Sonya said. "Hah...this is the first time in a long time I've really felt hopeful." Maybe it was baseless. But just this once, Sonya wanted to believe that things could go her way again. She was in a nasty situation, where she could be killed or imprisoned at any moment, but allowed to stay 'free' through underhanded arrangements. She'd fallen for someone she was supposed to kill, and would have to deal with that somehow. Still, she wanted to believe there was a way out of that, even if she couldn't see it. Maybe, with Trinity at her side, there was a chance.

And if not, this time she'd go out fighting.

"As for...certain people who want you dead, I'll tell them for now that you managed to get away from me. I'm not ready to run away just yet, but when I feel like I can...I want to do it with you." This time, it was Trinity who moved in to kiss Sonya. Sonya eagerly returned it, still holding tightly to Trinity. While Sonya had intended for the night before to be one of pure bliss, it was this moment that seemed like the happiest to her.

[Trinity]

Trinity felt a reassurance that with this strange, newly found bond, that perhaps things would get better. She could feel more complete, instead of having to rely on a one-dimensional act of being a beautiful killer, assassin, or some sort of person like that. But she knew that with this union, they would make far more enemies out of it than making allies. She acknowledged that. But better that than being dead. Trinity would be willing to fight with that thrill in mind. And of course, the thrill of being on the run with someone she could say she liked - no, someone she fell in love with. Wasn't that romantic? Two lovers - two killers - both on the run.

Trinity could feel Sonya reciprocate, returning the kiss and holding it tightly. All the blonde could do was to make it more passionate with subtle movements, stroking Sonya's hair lovingly, using her mouth more liberally, making soft sounds, all this to reassure Sonya that she would be in this together with her. As Sonya most undoubtedly would also be thinking - at this point, if they were going to go down, possibly together, they'd definitely want to go out with a bang. To cherish their last moments together side by side, doing what they did best.

Kicking ass.

[Sonya]

Trinity's movements, making the kiss deeper and more passionate, seemed to reassure Sonya. Yes...they'd be in this together now, wouldn't they? Even if it ended disastrously yet again, they'd be going down together. In that moment, Sonya made a resolution to herself. If that time was forced to come again, it would be the last time. Because this time, she would keep fighting to the very end. If it was Ylisse that brought her down, she'd drag Matthias down with her. if it was Velia's guild of assassins, she'd kill as many of them as she could before the last of her life left her body. If it was someone else, she'd just have to kill them first.

No one could break her. No one else could scare her. She'd already reached and climbed out of the lowest point in her life, and though the path was steep and treacherous, she was on her way back up. It just took this newfound bond with Trinity to make Sonya see that.

Finally, she pulled away and looked Trinity in the eyes again. "So," she said, grinning. "Where do you want to go from here?"

[Trinity]

Trinity could feel the warmth of Sonya both through her mouth and through her arms; and it was this warmth that told her, that perhaps even if she did have a few screws loose, she could still be seen as another person and be treated just as one. Especially because now the road was going to become just that more dangerous. Trinity didn't really stand to lose much from this but of course she recognized that Sonya was effectively selling herself out if anybody ever discovered that instead of killing the Crimson Witch as she was tasked to, instead fell for her and instead decided to join forces. Trinity knew deep inside that she would support Sonya in these endeavours. She wouldn't let her go down alone, she would be there for her. That is if it ever came to that - Trinity knew that in the worst case scenario, the best thing she could ask for was for the two of them to go down, with their last breaths they would be together in each other's arms - wouldn't that be lovely? But of course, they would have needed to cause as much carnage and mayhem as possible in the throes of desperation. But that was a bridge they would cross later on.

Eventually, Sonya pulled away and looked at Trinity in the eyes and asked the quintessential question - "What now?" - Trinity fidgeted and scratched her head for a moment. "You know, hon, that's a pretty good question. Where should we go from here... To be honest, I haven't got much direction on me right now. If there are things you need to do, on the other hand, I'll do my best to support you with anything I can. I'd love to work with you too." Trinity said, smiling warmly and stroking Sonya's cheek playfully.